Well, it has mine. I wonder if my life matters – if it makes a difference. Does my existence help or hurt the planet – or does it not make any difference at all? I’m just one in billions upon billions. My input whether small or great is still small in the big scheme of things…right? So, what difference does it make? Why even try? Does it even matter? Who cares?
And to top it off – I know me. And that knowledge ain’t so pretty. I know the blunders, the downright disasters I’ve made in my short time on this earth. My contribution if added all up may amount to nothing and maybe worse than that maybe the place is worse than before I showed up. Maybe my being here has made things worse instead of better. So what’s the point?
You may have never had this conversation – but I have. Just did. Actually, that’s why I’m writing here in the dark, instead of sleeping.
And like always, I talk to God. Ask questions, seek answers. I wish I could hear Him better. But I ask and trust that He can figure out a way to get through and show The Answer.
Tonight as I wondered about the insignificance of my life. I thought of The One that indisputably has made the most difference of anyone who ever walked the planet. Whether you believe or not; whether you call yourself a Christian or not; no doubt about it Jesus is the undisputed champion of difference-makers on the planet.
This One Man changed the world. He lived a simple life, surrounded by simple folk. He came with a mission to change His world and yet He was never too busy to stop. In about 33 years of walking dusty streets He was ready to lay down His life and say “It is finished.” He completed His work.
As a child we sang, “The B-I-B-L-E yes that’s the book for me. I stand alone on The Word of God the B-I-B-L-E.” God’s Word with skin on is the Man, Jesus. All The Book is written of Him and in a miraculous event The Word became a living breathing being in the flesh – Jesus.
I’m a half-a- centurion and still wondering what I wanna be when I grow up. I certainly haven’t accomplished what I think I shouda-coulda-woulda. Why not? Life happened.
So where’s the answer? If Jesus is The Answer then the answer should be found in Him – right?
Since I can’t find sleep, I’m trying to find The Answer.
Jesus, how do I make a difference? How do I matter? How can I say at the end of the day… “It is finished; I’ve run my race; I‘ve done what I’ve come here to do?”
I see the worn old weathered band on my wrist barely readable in the dark; W.W.J.D.
The verse: Be imitators of Christ whispers in my mind.
Eyes fall back on words just written… He lived a simple life, surrounded by simple folk. He came with a mission to change His world and yet He was never too busy to stop.
He made a difference. His life mattered. And what did He do? He kept His life simple, manageable, and He stopped to keep it that way.
I can do that. We all can do that.
• Simply be – live inside our means financially and inside our world socially. A simple life with peace is great wealth. The best way to change the world is to change our world. Simple doesn’t mean easy, it may be hard, but it will be strong and stable.
• Stop the clock and be. We are a human-beings not a human-doings. Be with your family, be with your friends, be with your employer. That might take a splash of cold reality in the face – stop texting, e-mailing – tweeting – face-booking... Be present.
• Love is spelled T-I-M-E. And isn’t that what the B-I-B-L-E is all about? The Word made flesh? He put on skin. That which is Eternal put on T-I-M-E to be a human-being with us...
Immanuel = God with us.
You do matter. You are important. You can make a difference. No matter where you are or where you’ve been – you can change your world – for the better. And if you want you can start right now. The Greatest Difference-Maker of all times is ready and willing to help you change your world.
* I’ve already prayed for you – if you’d like, I’d be happy to pray with you.*